wow open wounds

Have you ever been in a situation where you find something out and your face gets flush and you have that pit of sickness in your stomach?
Well I cant be specific currently. But I am feeling that way right now along with being sad/hurt.
You go about life learning and growing but sometimes things happen. Sometimes these things do not give you closure. Sometimes these things are like an open wound that just keeps coming back every so often. I wonder why I cant seem to get over this. I thought I was but the fact that my body is having a reaction like this shows me I am not. It also shows me that I am capable of feeling things that I have not felt in a long time. I need to get my shit together more. There is no excuse I just need to do it.