Dreams tell the tale!!

So I know I have issues everybody does. I somehow ended up suppressing part this particular issue which made things worse. I don't remember weather it was a conscious decision but I do know it was not the right one to make. The dream I had was a good dream, I felt happy and lets me know i need to get some closure. Basically I have abandonment issues. My father, my step dad and someone that I loved. I have dealt with My Father and step dad and gotten a lot of closure from that. But the one I have not been able to deal with and was a person that I fell in love with, his name started with a "P" one day everything stopped and he disappeared. I guess I really did not deal with it. It was after that I got on my antidepressants. Later I started dating again, however I never let anyone get that close to me. Don't get me wrong I cared about my boyfriends but I never really let them in to deep. This was not a conscious decision and it bugged me because I wanted to let them in and it just was not really happening on the level that I wanted or on a level I knew I was capable of. Over the last year I have ran into his name a few times and it invoked some really sad and painful feelings. So I think I am going to write a letter to help get some closure.