Last year

Last year I made a lot of progress.

• Got off the anxiety/depression medication Cymbalta. That was rough and given the choice I would have never taken it had I known how hard it was going to be. I am happy for the most part now without the medications and I actually feel all emotions not just some.
• Changed my diet got my blood pressure down.
• Started School again.
• Took a vacation to Colorado and visited Mr Dabrowski whom Is always a good host I almost died from eating to healthy and exercising to much. I also blame him for my hypersensitivity to sound, which i have had since I came back.
  
• Made some important decisions about what I need to do in the next few years.
  

wow open wounds

Have you ever been in a situation where you find something out and your face gets flush and you have that pit of sickness in your stomach?
Well I cant be specific currently. But I am feeling that way right now along with being sad/hurt.
You go about life learning and growing but sometimes things happen. Sometimes these things do not give you closure. Sometimes these things are like an open wound that just keeps coming back every so often. I wonder why I cant seem to get over this. I thought I was but the fact that my body is having a reaction like this shows me I am not. It also shows me that I am capable of feeling things that I have not felt in a long time. I need to get my shit together more. There is no excuse I just need to do it.